The Day I Stopped Being White

Updated: Sep 10

This isn't about my beef with neo-pagans Aryan purity spiralists, but rather their beef with me, and their problem with my identity. And here I will be putting this to rest.

The Aryan purity spiralists are at it again. And this time, they have gone too far.

I will start this off by saying that this certainly doesn't apply to everyone who loves their culture, nation, country, heritage, or ancestors. Nations and differences are a good thing. God glories in the different. Many love their heritage and believe it holds some significance to them, and that's great. I feel very strongly about mine as well. But there are those who take it too far, who try to make a 'god' out of it, who to try to idolize it or make a doctrine out of it. I speak of those people. This isn't to suggest that we should all throw away all of our differences. The important thing is that you learn to love yourself and how God made you! I love the nation I am a part of. And you should love yours, too.

That said, the Aryan purity spiralists are at it again. And this time, they have crossed the line. They seem to think they have an authority on who is or who is not to be accepted as white-Western or European. After all, it's the center of everything they talk about.

Being proud of one's roots - Is it Ok for a Christian?

Many people love their nation and want to preserve their heritage, and there is certainly nothing in God's book that speaks against that.

However, it does speak against taking heed to weird doctrines or paying attention to endless genealogies to prove the legitimacy or authority of one's pedigree. Here I will be touching on this subject.

Anyone who knows me knows that I love all parts of my heritage, which is widely white European in origin. I have done some extensive research on my family history and it's all fascinating. I descend from so many remarkable people. Anyone who knows me knows I am proud of my family roots. Since then, I have created various European/Western pages that celebrate the things and the people that are connected to me. I support the well-being of my nation and people and all nations.

I want my people to go free of Marxist brainwashing as well as Nazi Neo-pagan ideas (which is the other side of the double-edged sword) and I will be illustrating why this is so problematic to most of our people. It all started when I began to follow these various European pages that celebrate the people and the things that are connected to me. It was then that I discovered these neo-pagans who also call themselves alt-right. Although this does not apply to everyone who calls themselves 'alt-right' (I don't personally call myself one, nor am I), but when you follow these pages that celebrate white heritage, also be wary, that you will occasionally run into people with erroneous ideas and prejudices, that if they see something different about you; they will single you out.

Comments such as:

((You look Asiatic.))

(("It seems that you wish to 'prove' that you belong to something?"))

As if I don't. But aren't they doing the same thing?

Let us acknowledge that humans are inherently tribal... There's no way around that. We all like to be a part of something and have a sense of collective identity. So I think we should strive to be 'tribal' along the right lines and avoid devolving into hatred and hostility. Hatred is deadly.

The deadly hatred that is behind comments such as:

(("You look like a Mongolian rape baby"))

(("What do you mean 'we' or 'our' if you are Asian?"))

Comments like these suggest that they won't show solidarity for you because you look different. These same people who throw these comments at me also show their prejudices and will hatred towards people of other races and ethnicities. As a matter of fact, these same people will hate anyone who does not look like them. They view anyone else as an enemy or an invader, or anyone who looks different or has dark features. So it's no wonder that some of them have turned into full-blown Nazis because they also had this mindset and they acted on it.

These neo-pagan minded people will single you out or try to invalidate your ethnic identity because your appearance looks different, they will try to bully you, push you aside, and marginalize you because you don't measure up to the standard they view as to what people from these various cultures of Europe should look like. Therefore, you don't have their stamp of approval. And sometimes that prejudice comes in the form of 'colorist bias' (Judging someone by the color of their pigment). Comments such as:

((Brown hair is not an Indo-European trait.))

Or 'featureism' which is a prejudice against another person's phenotypes or features.

((You're not European at all. You look like a Mongolian mixed with white.)) Ummm. who made you the identity police? We should recognize that there are different types of white heritage and they all have their own beauty. Stop perpetuating stereotypes that all white Westerners have narrow faces, light hair, rounded blue eyes, and blonde hair. Yes, some do, and that’s awesome. Others have hooded eyes, high cheekbones, dark hair, red hair, tanned skin, and various eye colors including different shades of brown. All are white Western.

In my blog: "You look Asiatic. Are You Asian?" I highlighted some of the prejudices and rude comments I have received from other white people due to my physical appearance. I have been singled out many times for my dark hair, hooded eyes, high cheekbones (which are all Germanic traits). And it isn't just one person doing it.

Comments such as: "Are you even white? You look like a Mongoloid." "But... you have Chinese eyes. Just sayin'." "But... you're Asian." "You look mixed."

"You have small slanted eyes."

"This woman looks like a Mongolian mixed with white." "You have an Asiatic appearance." Their response when you tell them where your heritage is actually from:

"No evidence was given that you don't have an Asiatic admixture." "You're in denial." "Where from Asia are you from?"

"You should take a DNA test. You might have Asian ancestry." Here are some fun facts about REAL Asians they should learn:

As you can see, these comments are coming from a position of prejudice, subtle race-hate and bias. These comments suggest that I do not have the right to celebrate my European roots or claim the identity that I already have because I might be mixed with Asian, which is downright laughable! Who thinks this way? Nobody but them. So after being called generic for possessing a dark feature, which is my hair color, I have discovered how unique my hair shade is as well as other characteristics about myself that I can celebrate. But they are also the reason I am singled out which is the downside of being... well... what do you know? DIFFERENT!

But I thought we were supposed to celebrate and be proud of what makes us unique? But according to these Neo-pagan Aryan purity spiralist, we should only be proud of certain things that make us different like light hair, light eyes, and pale skin tones. Apparently, my unique DNA or phenotypes such as hooded eyes, my unique brown hair shade, high cheekbones, face shape (which are germanic traits) don't count.

If there is something about you that makes you stand out from the rest, and you dare to be unapologetically you? You'll be faced with the following:

  1. Being singled out.

  2. Having people argue about who you are.

  3. Constantly having your racial or ethnic identity invalidated.

  4. Being called names like mongrel or mutt like you are not a whole person.

  5. Being told that you aren't white. You're just mixed with white.

Some people think that just because they can type six letters on a keyboard automatically makes them an expert on everything, including your family history.

People like this just assume I have identity issues, which I'm pretty sure it is they who have a problem with my identity, not me.

And to all my white folks out there, please stop telling me I don’t ‘look white enough’.

This is divisive. You're suggesting that I don’t fit into your idea of someone with European heritage. And I know that you aren't trying to deny me my heritage, at least not completely. But your assumption that western people from the various cultures of the West can only look one way broadcasts your inherent bias. When you tell me “at least your I.Q. is not low” forgive me if I don’t hear the compliment.

Just so we are clear: If you have Western heritage and having a minor ethnic mix of non-European blood, does that make you a non-white? Not necessarily. It makes you a White Westerner with an ancestor that was different. How is it that some white Westerners, despite the fact that they had an ancestor that was different; look European? Can they still claim they are mixed? Or could this be an indication that they inherited their genes from their European ancestors, only? Let that sink in. Yes, this does happen!

And again, many Westerners are mixed with different ethnic backgrounds such as French, German, Italian, Spanish, Dutch, English, Scandinavian, and so on. And some white people- even have Ashkenazi Jewish and sometimes East Asian ancestry! Besides, Northern and Western Europeans (of which I am 97%) are made from the same stock.

So why the prejudice? Are these people a part of a hivemind? It seems that they are. All this focus on white ethnic purity to prove one’s legitimacy and authority seem to be their primary focus. I bet my pedigree is higher than these mixed-race people in the Aryan purity spiralist movement.

And for those of us who may have a .1% difference in our DNA strands, why identify as mixed when we are not accepted as mixed or accepted in the mixed community because we don’t look ambiguous enough?

An honest question I may ask.

No man has the monopoly on someone's heritage. We can't "exclude" any given person from their ancestry. Also, there are more and there are less successful approaches to helping white westerners. Adopting ideologies and aesthetics with huge negative associations is unwise.

So, in this; I will continue to be authentic. And to those of you who wish to slander me or miscategorize me because of my physical characteristics, I will say this:

I don't need your approval to celebrate my Western roots. I don't need your approval to love my differences. I love my unique qualities and I'm going to keep loving them whether you like it or not! #IAmNotYourLabels

Nor am I ashamed of the way God made me. He made my face the way he wanted it. He colored my hair and skin the way that he did because he liked it. Who is anyone to say otherwise?

So who is white (as defined by others)?

The left defines it for us all the time. Nobody has a problem identifying who is white and who isn't when it comes to white privilege, affirmative action, reparations, etc. But when there's something that could benefit us as a group like not becoming a minority in our own countries suddenly it's (("race doesn't exist")).

This is when the left pulls out this argument: "Take a DNA test. you're not as white as you think you are." It seems that the Aryan purity spiralists and leftists are in cahoots. They make the same arguments, but for different reasons. This goes to show you these people are not really on the side of all people under the umbrella of White Western kind, but are rather the other side of the double-edged sword destroying the West, and Leftism being the other. Again, you can't disqualify someone from their ancestors. Nobody has a corner when it comes to someone else's family history or origins. I would venture to say that there so much history behind each person's family line that the entire sum of it is impossible to know, from a human standpoint. I would go so far as to say there is no such thing as a 'pure race'. Differences in culture and phenotypes? Yes. But not pure races.

Here are what my phenotypes look like. Do these eyes look Asian to you?

If you think so, you need to get your own eyes checked.

If you have the audacity to look at me and tell me I don't look white Western, but a Mongolian??? Then the problem lies with you, not me.

So now, that I've gotten that out of the way, I will be delving into the scriptures. What does God's word say about this?

What is white as defined by God?

Now, many people will not like what I have to say, and this may tick some people off and/or ruffle up some feathers, but it needs to be said. And I am going to put some things to rest with this whole identity thing.

You see, I grew up in a Western society. I was raised by a Western family, in a Western culture, and in a majority white country. There were white leaders all around me. There were majority-white churches. I went to majority-white schools, colleges, learned about my European roots, and discovered many amazing things about my family history.

I got involved in music-making and art and created new things that correspond to the cultures my ancestors came from. I learned the languages. Created some remarkable things which promoted white Western values. But unfortunately, the more I learned about the plight of white people, the more infuriated I became.

This day and age we are suffering a grave consequence of open borders. Our children are being targeted for Marxist indoctrination, and other children are taught to hate them and blame them.

In various countries across the west, our young girls are targeted by grooming gangs and trafficking by hostile foreigners while authorities sit back and do nothing.

Some of the most gruesome murders in places such as SA, which remain unreported by the mainstream media; are ignored. And they remain silent as they continue to be slaughtered there.

Our history is being erased all across the West. Our civilization is being destroyed before our very eyes; the very civilizations that were created by our ancestors for us.

We are discriminated against even by our own people who have bought into this Aryan purity doctrine or Marxist ideology, which are two sides of the double-edged sword. We are so divided from within and without, that it is virtually impossible to unite all of us against what is being done to us.

And in anger, I began to ask the Lord: "When are you going to take the reproach of white people away?"

My understanding began to open up as scripture came to my mind.

  1. He already did through the cross, in his son Jesus Christ.

  2. No one has control of you except what you give them.

  3. I am not a race/color/ethnicity in the eyes of God. And I'm not white (in God's eyes).

What do you mean, I'm not white? This goes against everything I believed, everything I was taught, everything I valued. Everything!

Let's take a closer look at this from a Biblical perspective.

I am a spiritual being created in the image of God, and after his likeness. And I have no limitations.

As much as I wrestled with that, I knew in my heart it was the truth. I remembered the scriptures that speak of how God created Adam and breathed into him and how he became a living soul. Adam became a speaking spiritual being. And so am I. And so are you.

The truth is, this isn't about my white skin or your dark skin. This is not to offend or be disrespectful toward a beautiful culture, a beautiful complexion, a beautiful heritage. But this is to say that my white skin is not my identity (with God).

Neither is your skin color your identity with God, or whatever persuasion you affiliate yourself with (race/culture/phenotypes/bio-spirituality/etc). Our truest identity is our spiritual connection to God. Our relationship with our creator. That is who you really are.

The truth of the matter is: Until we discover this and believe this, we will continue to be distracted by things that have been set in place from a very long time ago.

I am not white and you are not black (in the eyes of our creator), but God is our father!

Ethnic Purity - Does God Care?

Does my ethnic identity really matter to God? How does he see me?

This is to ensure, that whoever you are and whatever you believe; that Biblical Christianity does not support Neo-Pagan ideology.

I am defining these Aryan purity spiralists movement as Neo-pagan or alt-right because they believe that white purity is the most important thing. Rarity, genetic purity, and sometimes racial superiority are a few things they promote. They believe this is the most important thing. Everything they talk about is centered around it. Tied to it. Connected to it.

Christianity is about redemption and salvation for all humankind, and these things are not based on any biological factors.

One of the foremost writers of the New Testament (the second part of the Bible) is a Jewish Rabbi named Paul. He was one that hunted and killed Christians before he converted to Christianity. This happened by his experience with Jesus, as saw a vision of him and as Paul heard Jesus ask him: "Why do you persecute me? Is it hard for you to kick against the pricks?" Talk about a red-pill moment. Without him, we don't have Christian doctrine as it exists today. Paul is not the only founding father of Christianity but he wrote about 2/3 of the NT. Which means that he is a pretty big deal within any angle of Christianity. Much of what I will be referencing is Pauls' writing to the early church.

So, let's look at Race, Ethnicity, and Culture: the things these Neo-Pagans and alt-righters believe are the most important thing. And let's look at them through the lens of the New Testament and Biblical Christianity. The NT contests that Race and/or Ethnicity matters to God or should matter to Christians.

As I urged you on my departure to Macedonia, you should stay on at Ephesus to instruct certain men not to teach false doctrines or devote themselves to myths and endless genealogies, which promote speculation rather than the stewardship of God’s work, which is by faith. The goal of our instruction is the love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and a sincere faith.… -1 Timothy 1:4

Paul wrote that Christians should not pay attention to weird doctrines or to pay attention to endless genealogies. This is actually reiterated in a second place in the NT as well.

Paul says this, not once, but twice:

"Don't pay attention to endless genealogies."

The only place to take a genealogy seriously is to prove one's racial purity, legitimacy, and authority.

Now a lot of us, including me, do genealogies to find out about their family history and historical stuff for fun, to find out about their family history connections, historical castles, or coats of arms that relate your family lineages. That's all well and good. The point is that Christians are not to pay attention to endless genealogies for any of the reasons that people would take them seriously, which has to do with racial purity, authority, or legitimacy one derives from such supposed purity.

This idea of racial or ethnic purity is something paul wrote about in another section in Philippians 3:4-9 and makes a rhetorical argument against some detractors of his. His detractors are basically coming against him based on his cultural purity, his legitimacy under Jewish law, and his ethnic purity. But he refutes them by showing them that his pedigree is actually higher than theirs.

Then he puts the whole issue to rest stating, that within the Christian faith; his pedigree means nothing. He's basically saying, that according to their racial and cultural and religious standards that they're so hyped about, I'm actually better than them. And from that position, I'm telling you that it means nothing in light of redemption.

And again, going back to redemption as a central concept. But the argument about the unimportance of race in the NT is actually fleshed out even further in a couple of other places. Basically the line that Paul delivers on several occasions to several different churches is that there are neither Jew nor Greek in Christianity.

Romans 3:9, Romans 10:12, Colossians 3:10-11

This is because Jews were likely to be deemed as first-class Christians. Possessing first-class spirituality and the Greeks (gentiles)... not so much. This is why Paul states that race doesn't create value.

This is not to deny the physical reality that race/ethnicities have certain traits and exist. But this is an assertion that race does not create status with God. Nor does genetic purity.

Under redemption, in God's spiritual economy of value; there is no such thing as race. There are only humans. No black victimization. No white privilege. None of that social justice garbage.

What if I want to preserve my genetic lineage and culture? Many people love their nation and want to preserve it, and there is certainly nothing in God's book that speaks against that.

Scriptures even entail that these nations will exist in the time of his second coming.

Revelation 7:9

"Great Multitude from Every Nation After this I looked, and behold, a great multitude that no one could number, from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages, standing before the throne and before the Lamb, clothed in white robes, with palm branches in their hands,"

This Aryan purity doctrine is not something Christians should be paying attention to.

Christians aren't to worry about racial genealogies in a serious way to establish their purity or legitimacy because their racial purity doesn't matter to God. Race isn't important in God's kingdom, salvation or redemption.

So who am I really?

I am Sonya Marlene. My DNA is American since 1609. I love my country, my nation, and freedom! I am a Child of the King, buried in his name, raised with him, and given a new name. My God is the prime mover, our creator! And I am created in his image and likeness. That is my identity.

And if you have not yet received Salvation, this free gift is available for anyone who wants it!

My sincere prayer

"Lord, please remove anything in me that is not of you. This world and its ideas have tainted me, and I desire to line up with your word. Change my heart, make me more like you!"

If you have not yet received salvation or a relationship with the maker, ask him today. Don't wait until tomorrow.

Read my Testimony here!

Also Read An Important Message To The White Community & Christians

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