This may not be a "get-up and shout out message" for anyone who has struggled with this problem, but I feel for you. And you are not alone.
The struggle is real!
I know I have hesitated to talk about this, but it needs to be said.
If you have hypothyroidism, you know that the struggle is real. Symptoms include, but not limited to: 1. Irregular heartbeat - your thyroid is responsible for regulating your heart rhythm.
2. Hair thinning/ hair loss - Your thyroid is responsible for the growth of your hair.
3. Weight gain - Your thyroid helps regulate your metabolism.
4. Weight loss resistance - This means, that no matter how much you exercise or eat healthy; it will make little to no difference until you address the root of your problem, which is your thyroid.
And once you look into conventional medicine, you will realize that even big pharma doesn't have all the answers. When I was first diagnosed with T4 hypothyroidism, I was prescribed a medication called: levothyroxine which, to my surprise; is known to cause weight gain. Well, that defeats the purpose, doesn't it? There are many people I know who are on thyroid medication who are overweight or extremely overweight. What does this say about big pharma's solution?
My other options of other pharmaceuticals, which cause weight loss, also cause temporary hair loss. I didn't want to make my already thinning hair even thinner. It's bad enough I have already suffered hair loss.
I was called fat
At this time, very few people knew about my condition. I posted a video around 3 years ago, talking about what my channel was about. I got some pretty nasty responses due to discussing some of my stances. So they decided to zero in on my weight. How disrespectful can you be?
You can watch the full video here:
No better insult to give to a lady than calling them a fat cow, right? What kind of world are we living in? They, since then; erased their repugnant comment. And I think that was the right thing to do. But you can't take those words back once they are said. The damage has already been done.
I'm tempted to say:
"Fat can slim down, but ugly just can't be fixed."
I know this may not sound like the "Christian" thing to say. But ugly is as ugly does. And you have an ugly heart! Do you feel proud of yourself when you look in the mirror? Does that make you feel better about yourself? We all know that hate doesn't come from a happy place. Hate doesn't come from someone who is loving life.
When did I look in the mirror asking myself: "Is there truth to what they are saying? Am I really that fat?" I begin to notice how far I've come from where I was at. I had successfully lost 30 pounds, even with my condition and that my friend is no easy task.
I've worked hard to strive to be better every single day. But they just don't get that, do they? They just don't understand all the hard work and sacrifice I put into my weight loss. This is sometimes hard to take because people don't realize when you are doing your best to take care of yourself and are not careless.
Unfortunately, it's the people who don't take care of themselves that give people with legitimate health conditions a bad rep. No joke!
Losing weight with hypothyroidism is no walk in the park. Believe me. But if you are a public figure or an artist who is giving your gift to the world, know that people are going to take note of these things. And if you have a health condition; realize there is some sort of hate coming for it. It comes with the territory. So if you can't stand the heat, stay out of the public eye. That's my best advice. But is this truly what I wanted to do? To give up on my dream? Do I really want to hide my talent in the sand over not looking or being perfect in the public eye according to mainstream media expectations? And being disparaged for it? Should I really give these people power over my life? The answer is no, of course not. So what now?
The pressure to be thin and perfect in the media.
This is what the public has been indoctrinated to expect from artists who are famous, public figures, singers, artists, and actors. The media influence has caused us to measure ourselves against unrealistic expectations and even we have. We have given into the deception that artists have to be absolutely flawless to be qualified to perform or have an audience. Take a look.
And of course, with every criticism, there is at least one ounce of truth... right? Of course, there is. But there are also lies!
As it has been stated repeatedly:
"If you are going to put yourself in front of an audience, at least show a good example by being in shape, and encouraging health and fitness. We want our women and girls to be encouraged to reflect a healthy lifestyle".
That's right. We do. But suffering from certain conditions can sometimes be an obstacle. Hypothyroidism is no exception. Your thyroid is responsible for your hair growth, heart rate, healthy skin, healthy weight and metabolism, and a whole lot of other factors. And if not dealt with, it can become life-threatening. And if it worsens it will prevent you from losing weight no matter how much exercise or dieting you do.
I have struggled through my entire young adulthood with this condition. Naturopathic doctors are not cheap, and conventional doctors only give you replacement hormones instead of getting to the root cause of it. So financially speaking, it has not been easy to find a solution. And who has the solution? There is so much false information out there. I have spent thousands on medications that don't work. What am I to do? But something inside me tells me: You can't give up.
Addressing the fat acceptance movement.
Sorry Cosmopolitan... but this is NOT healthy.
There is this other side of the extreme that is trying to normalize obesity. And I am in no way trying to justify this either. Imagine thinking this is healthy.
Think about it:
If it was normal, it would not need to be normalized... would it?
Cosmopolitan magazine has done just that. Trying to normalize obesity and saying it's healthy as if it were something that should be accepted. I'm sorry to say, but obesity is not perceived as attractive or healthy no matter which way you paint it. That is the die-hard truth. This is the real world, snowflakes. Either learn to live in it or melt.
But Sonya, I love and accept myself just the way I am. Who are you to judge me?
I am going to say that there are real people like me who have underlying health conditions that need to address their health problems. They have real problems. And if you are one, realize it is not your fault. On the other hand, I'm not going to sugarcoat these things for you, either. This is the reality of what you will be faced with in the world. Life is hard. There will be bumps in the road. This world isn't all sunshine and rainbows. And it will beat you down and keep you there... if you let it. So stop letting it!
I don't judge people per se. But we do have to learn to make the right judgments. In this, I will do what is best for my overall health. And I encourage others to do the same.
"If you want to feel good about yourself, it is impossible to feel good about yourself when you are doing something that is self-destructive. Also, self-destructive behaviors that result in damage, dehabilitation, or disfigurement of the body... that's never going to be perceived as beautiful."
I am a witness that being overweight is a not so happy place to be. And if it is not dealt with, it can cause other health problems that can lead to other degenerative diseases or premature death. Obesity is unhealthy. There is no way of getting around this. And in America, the food companies want to make and keep us fat.
They have scientifically figured out how to make the average person overweight. Over half the American population is overweight or obese. We need to address this problem.
It is up to you to do your own research on this. And I would start by reading Kevin Treudeau's "The Weight Loss Cure They Don't Want You To Know About," which has helped me to lose those extra 30 1b. But if you have a thyroid problem, you need to address that first.
Have you ever seen someone in their 80s who is obese? Me either. You get the point. What I am suggesting is to address this, not to accept this. There is a better solution than giving up altogether and not addressing the root cause of your overweight problem. So this is by no means to excuse destructive behavior or not addressing your underlying health condition. But this is indeed to help people see that it is a real struggle that also comes with certain health conditions and require real medical solutions.
Fat-shaming... Is it really necessary?
Some people say it works. Some people say it is not helpful. You have to realize, there are real health conditions that cause these things. Obesity is unhealthy. This is true. We get that. Some people have problems that are difficult to overcome. To people who aren't overweight or who don't understand, being overweight can seem like a simple problem ("Hey, you're just not eating right or exercising enough!") with a simple solution ("Hey, just eat less or exercise more!"). That's not helpful, and it can often make people feel like the extra weight is their fault — which of course it's not.
If losing weight were simple, no one would be in a situation to stay overweight. So it's natural to feel frustrated, angry, or upset.
Yes, I have been ridiculed for it. Yes, I am doing something about it. It's a real struggle that isn't overcome overnight. It takes time, motivation, and making better decisions for yourself.
It is amazing how other people outside of America view us. The "fat" stereotype is always the first thing people say about us. I hate stupid stereotypes. But isn't there at least one ounce of truth to that?
Many people outside of America either don't understand or don't realize why America's health is in such a decline, and much of the time, neither do many of the Americans who have lived in this country for generations. Many outside of America are so quick to judge us and mock us by calling us all fat whales which is so insulting to Americans! What a world we live in! Wouldn't you get sick of this stereotype being slapped on your country and your people? You'd be thinking:
"Not all of us are morbidly obese! Yet, the whole world believes it."
But that doesn't change the fact that most Americans are either overweight or obese. And the whole world knows it. Here is the proof!
So let's prove them wrong by getting in shape, addressing our health conditions, and becoming the best version of ourselves we can be. Don't let other people decide who you are. Stop buying into the mainstream media propaganda machine and do your own research.
The struggle with hypothyroidism as an artist:
I know if I am going to be in the public eye, I need to encourage a healthy lifestyle.
On my weight loss journey right now, I've been suffering from hypothyroidism which causes weight loss resistance. I am working on getting the treatment I need.
This has been what has kept me from actually making more videos and putting myself out there. It's hard to deal with the criticism, but now; it's getting to the point where I am going to have to stop worrying about what others think, and do what God has called me to do anyway. I can't let this be an obstacle. Life is full of flaws and bumps in the road. Life will never be perfect. That doesn't mean we should give up on our dreams.
You don't have to wait until you are perfect to follow your dreams!
Confession: I was afraid to put myself out there due to a weight loss resistance problem that I had a hard time overcoming and didn’t want to be scrutinized for it. We are living in an era where people expect perfection. But perfection doesn’t exist! The moment you realize that perfect doesn’t exist you can truly be happy.
Don’t let life’s problems define whether or not you can do something. Defy all odds. Strive to be the best and healthiest version of yourself you can be! And the rest is history!
How can we put ourselves out there without being labeled as lazy no good person who doesn't care about their condition? You just have to do only what you can do. The truth is, I've never cared more about it. And though I have tried to drop the pounds quite a few times, and have failed miserably; I am going to figure this thing out. If anything, I'll have to try something different than what I've tried before, and that is, to doctor the issue in a different manner, and to find the right treatment I need to overcome hypothyroidism.
You'll be seeing more blogs from me in the future and I will be posting my progress on this. Hopefully, it will help encourage someone else, too.
Here is what has helped me so far:
1. HCG hormone therapy (it works with a thyroid that is regulated correctly).
2. Thyraid - I've tried out new treatment options such as thyraid. It has helped me with brain fog and to supply much-needed nutrients to my thyroid.
3. Heavy metal detox - And here is the treatment I will be going for next, right now I am looking for a good detoxification protocol that cleanses your body of heavy metal poisoning which contributes to chemical imbalances. I will be trying these treatments myself before recommending them to you. Just giving everyone a heads up.
I am not a doctor, so be sure to consult your health care practitioner before taking these treatments or medications.
They keep ridiculing me. What do I do?
Remember, if you are receiving hate on your Youtube channel, it isn't for no reason. Just remember that.
I hope to get success in getting my life back and I will do what it takes to do so. And I encourage all artists out there to do the same. Don't give into the unrealistic expectations that people will put on you as an artist. You don't have to measure yourself against this expectation shown in the mainstream media. You don't have to wait until you are absolutely perfect to be used of God, but also realize that not taking care of yourself should not be an option either. We still should strive to be the best version of ourselves that we can be!
Also realize that no matter how good you are or how 'perfect and flawless' you are, there is always going to be someone out there that is going to have a problem with you. Remember that. Think about it. When people try to add insult to injury, it’s because you have something they want.
So glad to be one of those special people that don’t give up. Some dreams don’t happen overnight. You got to build em. Especially if you don’t have a support system backing you up. That’s ok. Do it anyway. It will be well worth it.
So, if your dream is to produce the most beautiful music the world has ever known, don’t let anyone’s doubt be what defines your success.
You don't have to wait until your absolutely perfect to be used of God!
So put your focus on what God's will is for your life, and let them talk. Build your dreams! You’ve got to believe in yourself, no matter what! And that includes learning to care for your body properly (and spirit).
#LoveYourHaters They are your biggest fans!